Monday, February 21, 2011 @ 11:15 AM
“How strange it is. We have these deep terrible lingering fears about ourselves and the people we love. Yet we walk around, talk to people, eat and drink. We manage to function. The feelings are deep and real. Shouldn’t they paralyze us? How is it we can survive them, at least for a little while? We drive a car, we teach a class. How is it no one sees how deeply afraid we were, last night, this morning? Is it something we all hide from each other, by mutual consent? Or do we share the same secret without knowing it? Wear the same disguise?”
— Don DeLillo
I guess I have to stop all these emotions from controlling me now. I have to buck up man. The whole family is depending on me . My dad's really not earning much , my mum's always talking about how money-lacking we are and she is worried about my sister ( who dont give a
damn and doesnt
know and
care a shit.) and my brother. I rweallly rweally wanted to withdraw a small money from my bank but she wont allow D: She wants me to save for future use. HAIZ. Oh wells. I guess my matarialistic wants and needs will have to wait. (damn you money)
If only I knew the date when the world is ending, I'll heck it and buy the most expensive clothes and shoes and doll myself up and die young and pretty C: If only. haha.
So, back to reality. Maybe I'll go back to the cpf building and ask my agent to get me some part time jobs ;x
Anyways! Yesterday had bbq with manxin, glynnis, cheryl , valarie and cynthia at glynnis's house c: Glynnis and her mum and me were washing the food and then mx , cheryl , val and laulau went swimming~ I also wanna play in the pool!~ Buts.... haha.
After that we went to start the fire and it took us ... 2hours? haha~ cheryl left early! D:
Then hmms after all the food we were playing cards called cheat! I just learnt it hahaha very fun! But I suck at cheating LOL. When I cheat all of them can see through me de LOL. But with mostly truthfulness I finished my cards first twice in two games! :3 Oh, and we laughed a lot during the game LOL. Cause val saw a couple kissing at the park. okay LOL damn funny!
Hope we can have such gatherings again!~ But we need to find quicker ways to start the fire haha x)