Friday, July 16, 2010 @ 4:51 PM

oh yea tumblr , I'M BACK!
I can finally stare at the computer screen for long hours! I missed this xD
School's been talking up my life these few weeks and it will go on until prelim ends .
At least until prelims end.
And after that? I'll be a full time anti-social freak who studies all day long.
Prelims start next week, chinese listening compre next tuesday , prelim science practical starts next wednesday.
I'm kinda afraid of practical. ESPECIALLY for chemistry.
I am so SO SO afraid that I'll burn down the lab!
There was once I tried to blow off the lighted splint (instuctions wanted glowing splint )
AND coincidentally, I held the lighted splint right in front of the bunsen burner( it was on ) and I blew those fire right off! OMG. It scared the hell out of me!
But somehow everyone around me didnt care and was doing their thang.... :\
ahh wells. I should go back to tumblr , then watch my anime! Should I watch some movies online?
edit/
hmms just watched eclipse and I admit , It's kinda boring. The only funny part was when bella tried to punch jacob's face and sprained her hands instead. Her face and sound effect was epic funny xD
My brother is starting to fight with me for the computer. Oh shiat. & He's only 7!
Oh no nono. Should I start putting password for the computer now?
My sister doesnt have to use the computer. She can just stare at that iphone for all I care.
That baka. xP
Sighs I don't know. If my sister's grades were good, if she was diligent and obedient enough , her attitude would not be like this, she could have gotten into express class, she would be able to get herself her hard-earned phone and I would have allowed her to use the computer for all I care because I believe she deserved it. But somehow, she just won't believe she can do it and she JUST DONT WANT TO WORK .
Many things could have turned out differently and things would have worked for the better. Why oh why. I admit that some things are my fault, I'm picky and selfish, I dont set a good example at times, well maybe all the time... I did reprimand myself for not being a good sister, I did hate myself and I think I still do. I even thought loads of times that if I hadn't been born , if my mum had a miscarriage when she had me, none of these would have happened. Everything will be fine. But I'm tired of being like this. I don't want to come the point when , I don't even know myself anymore. How can I change? I wish clock would turn back to 2003. The year when my brother was born. I really would treat him nicely, I would teach my sister to be nice and be a caring sister. Wouldn't that have been great?